Wednesday, March 31, 2010

The door of happiness

"When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us"
The door of happiness,
destroyed, or shall I say, closed,
in a matter of time,
the time was up,
it was fate,
something inevitable to come by,
perhaps if we had realised in time,
all these which had happened would not have happened,
but too many "what ifs" in life don't make a change,
some do, some simply don't,
certain "what ifs" might be revivable,
but certain just aren't,
no matter how hard you tried,
it's hard to fight when there fight aren't fair,
so while you looked at the door in absolute rueness,
you perhaps might have never noticed,
because you were so pre-occupied with that lose door,
that another has already opened for you,
just that it was concealed,
but the fact was,
it was already opened,
so go on,
and embrace that opened door,
never let it go,
stick to your principles,
from the lessons you learnt,
over the spilt milk,
that this door,
should not,
should never,
be closed,
unnoticingly,
and gone,
before you can even realise it.

Posted by The other Eden at 3:58 PM

spilt milk

I took the road less travelled today.
I had a choice. This way or the other.
But either way, the consequences would be so different.
The decision wasn't so hard.
I wanted to see things from a new perspective.
What I got was something completely new, something I had never before experienced, something more beautiful than the ordinary road.
It struck me that in life, we had decisions to make.
Decisions with inevitable consequences.
Consequences, the price to pay for that decision.
Regardless of what we want,
we cannot change the outcome,
so we can only accept it,
and make the best of it with what we can,
because sub-consciously, we are already growing,
but before we made the decision, we always have to consider carefully,
and accept the outcome regardless of what because,
it is no point crying over spilt milk,
because the milk can never be in perfect condition,
even if you get it back,would you be happy?
at least you tried,
at the very least,
to revive even the singlest drop,
but you could not possibly revive the entire milk,
because the damage has been done,
some cases in miracles you can,
but for some,
you can't,
so there's no point crying over spilt milk,
why not gain a lesson or two,
so there,
don't cha dare cry,
because it is no point
crying over spilt milk.

Posted by The other Eden at 3:39 PM

Saturday, March 27, 2010

lalalala

By request of Hui Ning, I shall blog this.
Life with Clarissa, Jie Ying, Hui Ning, Wei Xuan, Shi Ying etc has been a fun one. Er like you guys make me laugh, make me sad, make me happy. I can never fully describe them. The list is endless. But then again, life with you guys have been on the happiest part in my Dunman High life. Eh, I don't know how to write leh. Hahas. But anyway, I will be having a wrestling match with ah Clare on monday horh. Confirm die de =(

Posted by The other Eden at 4:52 PM

Monday, March 22, 2010

Randoom

Day 1 in school was rather dull and horrible. That dumb LA. I almost flunk it. Oh well, I shall learn from my mistakes eh. Afterall, there is still something called "next time do better". Come on, I am only into the early part of the year eh.. Anyway, I feel very happy today. That Geography relief teacher lecture was damn funny sia. She was like speaking in the British-accented tone. Heck, it reminds me of how I used to and is also now speaking in that tone. And well, it does bring back certain memories of the past. How when I used this and a certain person used to laugh like siao about it and also spoke in this Indian-accented tone. But well, I shan't let myself be bothered by this anymore. I have decided. I wanna treasure my remaining 4 years plus in Dunman. Even though now that everyone is maturing, it gets kinda hard to accept their different perspectives and views on issues. I guess this is part and parcel of life. So I shall not be so childish anymore. I shall grow up. After all, I am 14, yeah, it sounds real old to me eh. Because this childishness streak is not so accepted in certain 'society' I know of. Sounds weird. But well. I think we all have to mature eh. Cause people nowadays are damn irritating if they don't mature. But well, everyone is different. So I shall learn to adapt. Some survival instinct. Act childish only when it is appropriate. Don't over react ehh. Nobody likes that.
Btw, today without much thought of it was rather smooth-sailing and a happy day. I think it's high time, really, really, let go. Because people do metamorphosed. And that thought of everything that has happened to me and my life and everything else only makes letting go only easier and life better and happier . =D

Posted by The other Eden at 4:58 PM

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Being yourself

Sometimes, I really wonder who I really am.

Sometimes, I don't quite believe who I am.

Sometimes, I long to find and be who I really am.

Sometimes, I wonder if I am living for others or myself.

Then, I decided, that I should live for myself. If not, I was just thinking, life would be so meaningless, because you can't do what you want to do. Then you would have wasted a lifetime of yours just simply being who others want you to be. Then, I decided. I actually do love myself. I actually don't want myself to be hurt. I actually have faults. I used to believe I was invincible. I was great, flawless. But, all it took was for certain incidents to make me realise that no one is perfect, including me myself. Everyone is actually not perfect. We CAN'T be one too. Thoroughtout out lifetime, we are constantly learning and trying to be a better person. We are always trying to fit in. We always want acceptance. Just like me. Those incidents make me realise that I am actually a human being. I..I am not perfect. I admit I do look down on people. Then, when incidents in life like this surface, you start to look at them with a different eye. You start to admire and respect them. You start to hate yourself for how you have looked at them in the past. You just simply, simply, wonder where the old you have gone to. Sigh. I miss the old days at GESPS even up till today. During my time there, I really felt happy. Because I could mingle with anybody and still feel so carefree. Over there, you could be who you really are and just don't have to really feel embarrased about it. What about over here at Dunman? I feel that sometimes my life is restricted over there. Over there, I feel that I am oversensitive and just not me. I get angry and moody over the slightest thing last year. I just simply was overstressed and overburdened. Over there, because of my moodiness, my unwillingness to open up, I lost a friend. Sometimes, when I look back, I do feel regretful. I would loathe myself for what I did in the past, thinking if time permits, I would like to start all over. Again. Then, I would try to convince myself that people do change and it couldn't really be entirely my fault. Perhaps. I will never get the answer. Over in Dunman, I reflect a lot. Ponder a lot. I guess as a teenager, someone who is undergoing a change in life, does tend to be moody. Over at GESPS, Kim seemed to understand me well. She often knew what was on my mind and cheered me up, like a true friend. So I always felt safe and okay to let her into my secrets over the phone. Up till now, I still keep in touch with her about my problems and joy etc. Mostly it is moody over school problems. But still, I was glad to have someone who listen and provided advice. I really wonder who I really am. I want to be myself. So I shall be myself.

Posted by The other Eden at 11:18 PM

Saturday, March 13, 2010

A leopard DOES changes its spots

Just a while ago, while I was reading a certain person's blog , I was like "Family is better than friends." and "A leopard does change its spots.". Then now I am thinking. Haha. Like that it is easier mah. Easier for me.
Then just yesterday, I was reading Elvin's blog. And I thooght whatever he said there made sense. Yeap. I do hold him in high respect to be honest. Cause what he blogs about totally make sense, I always feel better after reading his blog posts.
Then I was thinking, suddenly, already today, I feel so so so happy. Without school =D Heck, I mean, school kinda suck at time with all the seemingly endless school work, projects, tests, and yeap, friendship problems.
Hah. That's a point I wanna make.
Just the other day, I was talking to this friend of mine. What she said totally made me feel so much better. So then, now I am thinking, "A leopard does change its spots, because it is afterall, a living thing."
So you do change because you are human. Because heck, some people out there just crave attention and acceptance into the so call "in society", worse still, some people I know just befriend others for the sake of good grades. Heck. What on earth are those people? Are they even humans? Man, I will sure hate that okay. Worse still, some people just leave one friend for the sake of what lame excuses. Those people really annoy me. -.-. Okay, shalln't spoil my mood further, I decided that too much reflection aren't good cause ultimately, it affects your mood and bring you so down. So I shall get back to my Percy Jackson book =D

Posted by The other Eden at 9:38 PM

Friday, March 12, 2010

Stupid life

Maybe I suck. Life is super suckish at the moment. Life sucks. Life freaking sucks. WTH. WTF. I hate life at the moment. -.- Stupid life.

Posted by The other Eden at 4:50 PM

Monday, March 8, 2010

Happy Birthday Cindy =D

Posted by The other Eden at 9:28 PM

Friday, March 5, 2010

Random

I'm writing this while listening to Taylor Swift's Fifteen.
Cindy's feeling drowsy and tired from taking the medicine prescribed to her. Yawn*
'Cause when you're fifteen...'
I suddenly am full of confidence. Don't know why.
Ohya, I want PERCY JACKSON BOOK!!!!!
I AM SO DAMN IN LOVE WITH PERCY JACKSON!!!!
SOMEONE, GET ME THE ENTIRE PERCY JACKSON BOOKS CAN? FOR MY BIRTHDAY =D HEHE. Sorry. Too over. Nevermind if cannot =D

Posted by The other Eden at 6:46 PM

Jerk

"As I paced back and forth all this time
Cause I honestly believed in you
Holding on, the days drag on,
Stupid girl, I should have known
I should have known"

Yeah, It's from Taylor Swift's White Horse. These lines made sense. Reading them makes me feel how stupid and foolish I was in the past. So then, I guess I could say with confidence that the wound ,you have so selfishly and insenstively inflicted on me is almost gone. Yeah. I no longer think of you, this friendship that much. Cause when I look at back then and now, I realised you were a jerk. Yeah. Totally. So it's officially about to be healed. This wound.
As the days went back, my memories of you, everything, begins to vanish and disappear. As though we didn't have a past. I am happy. For myself. That I have managed to after so many months, gotten over you . Nearly.
Cause when I look at back then and now, I realised you were a jerk. Byebye =D

Posted by The other Eden at 6:38 PM

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