Saturday, February 27, 2010
Officially over
It's officially over. I am darn happy. =D I will forget. Yeah . =D
Can't believe how many months passed by but this time round, I have really sorted it out all.
=D
Posted by The other Eden at 1:06 PM
Friday, February 26, 2010
Remote
Remote. Strangers. That's the words to describe this.
How funny it seems when life wasn't this
just a few months ago, is
this really something that can't be changed?
does it matter?
does it really matter if I have changed and you can't be there to see it?
Does it?
Does all these serve any purpose?
Hope, I carried these thus
but as time passes, my hope fades just as the sun that sets
every evening, just like hopes fades into the horizon
i wish none of these have happened,
"tomorow will be better"
maybe,
perhaps,
remote,
one in china, one is brazil.
yeah, wow.
say it and you wouldn't believe it,
suddenly, i have no inspiration to write, shalln't carry on.
Posted by The other Eden at 9:40 PM
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Being tolerant
Sometimes, in life, you really got to be tolerant, or shall I say, all the time?
You do certain things with certain people but you don't want to. Well, well, you got to bear with it. Okay, I don't want to write all these and then think that maybe somewhere out there someone is thinking too much and thinking I am insinuating. Nope, nope, just don't think tohero much. Let me have my own freedom to write what I want or I will really make this a private blog. I love freedom . Let me write what I want without any worries. Cause like sucks if that happen. Really.
I am rather tolerant in school . I bear with stuffs for as much as I can so I rarely explode. I am afraid of the after effects, like how others would think of me and besides, too much anger isn't good. I would just try to convince others.
So be tolerant. Yeah, that's kind of hard but what choice do we have in this world? Everything also have to tahun.
I havee always wanted to say this. You know how tto write ：人 but do you ACTUALLY KNOW HOW TO BE ONE?
Posted by The other Eden at 4:00 PM
Letter
It's so hard to let go off certain things, especially if you are attached to it. I think maybe now I have learnt to let go this but still, now and then, memories will flash back in my mind, as though none of these have taken place. When you never call out my name when you have something to pass to me, I feel kind of hurt and angry. Like why can't you just call out instead of tap on my shoulder? You can call out to others but not me. I feel angry with you for not doing that, as though I am like some stranger or something. I also get angry and hurt when you would rather pass the stuff to others than to me. Like wow. Wow. Can't you just pass them to me? It's like freaking annoying and hurting. This is an indication that you are embarrased. Just as I am still. Almost 3 months have passed since school started, yet we are still strangers to each other. Hard to believe how about 6 months ago things weren't like that. Is like, I think of how when I bought a present for you last year, you were like taking it out from my bag and were like" eh.. what is this arh?" acting. I thought that was cute and funny. Like haha. Forward 8 months and look and things now. We are getting remote right? It feels strange. Somehow, the pain has numb. I no longer think of you so much now. Perhaps time really healed it all. But if I had a chance to rewind back, I would, really, seriously, earnestly, cherish you. Unfortunately, that won't happen. Because as time pass by, and I look back at those moments, I wondered if you honestly cherished and treated me like a good friend. Yeah, I admit I was at fault. But if you really cherish someone as a friend, you would accept his/her flaws and tell him/her, sticking by him/her while him/her change. Then I will realise, humans are weird, you are weird. Everyday, I would try not to look at you, to forget you faster. I guess it worked in a way. I am in no way hostile or rude or moody. I guess it's just my face. I don't and am not really moody, just that my face appears to be, so please do not, in whatever ways, perceive it that I am moody. Cause I'm not. I am feeling positive now and a bit regretful now. But then I thought maybe everything I had thought out, you as a best friend of mine was simply and purely thinking too much thoughts of mine. My assumptions. So when I looked back, I felt kind of stupid and angry with myself. I know nothing will happen. Things will be the same. You and I will be remote for I don't know how long. But I don't want this. I think it's better to talk. I don't want like in this school have any regrets or like not talking to people, things like that. And when I looked back, I realised perhaps it's just you. Perhaps you couldn't accept my flaws, you just couldn't put yourself in my shoes, you couldn't understand. You just thought I was that insensitive. I want to tell you : Have you tried being me? Tried putting yourself in the same situation? No point forcing others do what they don't want. It won't yield happiness. So when I don't want to group with others, you can't say that I am being insensitive. Would you have done the same if you were in my shoes? Sure , you might care about their feelings, but then you realise you don't want to do with them, you prefer doing with some other. So I was thinking, maybe it wasn't entirely my fault. You couldn't really blame me. You had your faults, I had mine. If you were to ever read this, I hope you would understand but well, I guess you wouldn't read it. Or might have mixed feelings. Or might say " I very what". Well, well, to each his own, even though I still wished things are not the way they are today. Okay, I am thinking too much. Gotta scold myself.
Posted by The other Eden at 3:39 PM
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Embracing life positively
4 months have passed.
I am trying my bestest best to embrace life positively, believing that the worst would soon be over. After all, " When the going gets tough, the tough gets going". True, huh? I believe so. Just like now. Every NPCC session, I hope it would end, so that the torture I faced would be gone. Every time the time comes, I feel better and happier. As though NPCC training session has never occured. Same to you. I am forgetting you. Even though it is kind of hard. But I know out there, people care for me and that I can't live in this type of life forever. Life's short. You never know when it will just end. So I am trying my bestest best to forget you. I will think of the things that happened to me and make myself angry and upset so as to forget you. So far, I realised I can't think of you. That's the only way to alleviate my pain. So I will forget someone as unsentimental, as disloyal, as uncherishing like you. Forever. So in the meantime, I shall keep myself busy to forget you. It's a setback which brings about and changes to motivational power. 加油myself！You will regret it.
All bad things will end one day. Embrace Life positively. =D
Posted by The other Eden at 9:07 PM
Thursday, February 18, 2010
A glass of cola
Imagine this.
It just struck me.
Imagine a glass of cola. It is full. Pour some water into it and it will overflow. Just like life. Lets see trust. You are always wary and suspicious. Your heart is full of it. Trusting others can never get into it. It will always overflow and get out. You will always see things in the dark side, cause it's opaque. Pour it away and put some water in and you see clearness. Trust others. Never always be suspicious and wary of others. Pour away the suspicion in your heart and let in trust in your friends into you. Your heart will be clear and nicer, your life would be better lived. Aren't it better to have clearness in your heart rather than darkness, always negative? Let in different friends into your heart and you will have a wonderful mixture of colours. Aren't it better? Fill your heart with friends, not yourself, cause it is not worth living.
Posted by The other Eden at 6:28 PM
Internet
Finally.
I have internet!
Woohoo!
I realised how valuable it has become.
It has somehow become an integral part of me!
Blogging (Yeah I missed it!) , homework, projects, updates on entertainment news, man I need it all.
=D
Posted by The other Eden at 6:26 PM
