Saturday, December 19, 2009

I once asked this question in my blog.

Finally, I have the answer.

I live for myself. I live cause I have to live for myself. Not for anyone. At all.

I realised how I would end up being the unhappy person if I keep changing or just pretending to be someone who just aren't me. This is just not me. I am putting on a facade just to make others accept me, to make them happy, at the end of the day, I aren't happy. I don't want to lead this kind of life. This kind of life is without purpose, without meaning, and just simply nonsensical. Rubbish. Absurd.

This is me.

I want to be the true me.

I read in a magazine, if you keep putting on a facade just to make others be happy and accept you, you will never be happy and in the end when they find out you are just putting a facade, they will lose their trust in you. Hence, I want the real me to come out. Enough. Enough of pretending. Sure, I will change bad habits which are really unacceptable. I will change certain character traits like insensitiveness. But, I won't change who I really am. Everyone of us is unique. Why should I change just so that I can be a perfect that person in everyone's eyes?