Thursday, December 17, 2009

I decided to delete all my previous posts as some of them kind of created a sad atmosphere whenever I read them. Besides, I said I wanted to move on and lead a new life. I have been thinking about my life for a long, long time. I decided not to bottle up my feelings. I guess those drama serials and too much television as well as personal experiences have made me come to this decision. Like certain feelings, especially emotional ones, if you suppress them, over time, the wound in your heart goes even deeper and before you even realised it, the wound has sunk deep enough for you to lead a sad and moody life. Heck. I thought I should not burden others with my own problems but then I realised that it was wiser to tell them my problems. After all, keeping them to myself would do me no good and it may lead to drastic consequences which I definitely hate to imagine. So there, I learnt, a true friend is one who

listens to your woes and happiness attentively whenever you need a listening ear

who never shrugs off your problems just like that

who cares for you

who always is there to help you

who is sensitive and understands you well

who is someone who accepts you for who you are and gives you comments to help you improve,

who is optimistic towards life and is matured.

Hmm... that sounds like what I have in mind of a true friend. Someone, who would come to be one of my best friends.

I had several friends like that.

Kimberly, Jing Yi...

Come to think of it, I am fortunate and blessed to have them as true friends.

Jing Yi, I have not contacted her for some time now since we went separate ways to separate schools. i am thinking of ways to contact her.

Kimberly, hah, I am still in touch with her.

Know what? I prefer my primary school friends to my secondary school friends. I guessed that is cause of several upsetting incidents this year which led to this. Also, I am new in my secondary school. No wonder they say the old friends can never replace the new friends. Anyway, it is unhealthy to keep thinking of your primary school friends without letting go. Hence, I shall be happier in my secondary school, with true friends. I am positive I can if I believe I can. At least, I have to try.